Since then I have challenged myself and succeeded on workouts (WOD's) that I never thought possible. For example, today I ran 4,000 meters in the rain and 50 degree weather. The last time I ran more than the 400m warm up was in the summer when I was a "runner" and probably ran at most a mile-and-a-half before "Keeping Up With the Kardashians" on globo gym's TV ended and I got bored. Running 4,000m today proved that though it sucks, it's doable.
However, with these successes there has been some failure. I attempted the "Strict Paleo Challenge" through CFPT and while I can proudly say I went two weeks cheat-free, I re-kindled my love for beer and pizza and completely fell off the wagon. It was disappointing not only because I didn't achieve a goal, but I lost a ton of weight and I gained it right back.
I learned my lesson though. I learned I wasn't holding myself accountable and I wasn't using my support system. So with that information I am going to use this blog as a way of keeping on track and letting other people see what I'm doing.
This blog isn't just about Paleo of CrossFit though. Don't let the intro fool you. CrossFit was just an eye-opener that I have so much potential and if I really put my mind to it I can achieve everything. Today I didn't think I could run more than 1,600m. And I ran 4,000m.
So the challenge that I chose to accept is to start doing everything that I love to the best of my ability. I don't want to make a list right now of everything I want to achieve because a list could be daunting and it shouldn't be about putting all of my priorities in an order. It's about going to bed every night, snuggled up with a good book (at the moment it's Deathly Hallows, I need to re-read before I see the movie) and knowing that I achieved what I wanted to do and needed to do that day. Even monotonous things like not spending too much money, making sure I left the kitchen clean, or practicing the drums are the things I want to focus on. Some are big and some are small, but they all still matter to me.
So today's successes? Well, without the very obvious running 4,000m (sorry, I keep repeating it, but I'm damn proud), I had my first drum lesson with my new drum teacher today. I made myself a delicious Paleo-friendly dinner with leftovers so I don't find myself stopping at Arby's again to order three roast beef sandwiches to just each the roast beef. And I started this blog.
I don't know if anyone will read this, but really all that matters is that I write it.
(Shout out to Jasmine for inspiring me to write a blog after I read hers.)